Hi again powerful souls!

 

Sunday and 3 weeks(!) since you last heard from me. Life happened. Again.

 

For those of you in my Facebook group, A Different Way. YOUR Way, you may have seen my post about my deep dive into the black hole of 3D consciousness. I promised I would elaborate on that in this newsletter. If you like, you can check out the post here (goes to the one on my personal profile).

 

It is all about states of consciousness and I will list av few key words about the 3D and 5D below so you can tap into the difference between them. For the most part 3D and 5D is what is being discussed and talked about these days. 4D not so much. 4D is not to be skipped but for the sake of my story about what happened it is not important right now. 

 

5D Key Words

 

What I feel my story will shed light on is the power of focus and the power of mastering our energy as opposed to allow our subconscious mind with all our beliefs run the show. 

 

Here is what happened when my daughter - whom I love and adore to the moon and back - and I started a completely innocent conversation that turned into raging hell.

 

The specifics of our conversation is not important here, but what happened when I communicated what I was not available for when she started more or less screaming to me about a subject we truly had finished discussing many days ago is.

 

It was a completely "innocent" topic but she dove right into communicating purely from emotions.  Me tapping into even more logic did not help the situation. Which I knew of course.

 

THEN: She did a deep dive into childhood stories and traumas about never having been seen or never having been loved and that I NEVER once had tried to see or love her. She called me all kinds of names and then some. The actual topic seemed to no longer exist. 

 

This is where the situation could have been saved had I stayed in my power, my expanded state and practiced being the observer. As well as have a laser focus on my energetic priorities. 

 

Instead I dove right into the ghastly, black hole of 3D consciousness of grief, anger, shame and victimhood and contributed to the escalation into some sort of competition about right or wrong (duality is also a key word for 3D)

 

I knew what I was doing when I did it, but somehow couldn't stop myself.  We are both adults, but I also knew that I was the one who should have focused on what was significant here. Her accusations and words were SO harsh that all of it left me completely devasted and ashamed of not having been the mother she felt she deserved. Especially since she always refuses to be touched or hugged, and seem to have a very hard time receiving words of love and compassion. That hurts big time for a mother. 

 

In other words, I made my self a giant victim. As did she. And there we were. Again. Pretty well known situation for us over MANY years. So we didn't speak for 2-3 days, did quite a lot of crying - each of us on our own - and then got back together.

 

THIS time the visit in 3D hurt so much, I vowed never to go there again. I truly believe I will be able to keep that promise since having spent so much time in 5D for the longest time that I experience myself as two different entities. One - as if it is a previous lifetime - in 3D, a different one - the real me - in 5D. 

 

So there you have it; I too am just a human, but having known what kind of life is possible when in 5D will make sure I breathe deeply next time I am challenged and remind myself to stay focused, that I have the power and responsibility and to be the observer. That way I can remain clear on what is REALLY going on. And perhaps simply choose to let it go. 

 

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Change of subject;  I have FINALLY published my website. Still work to be done, but do take a look!

 

Below is a link to one of the blog posts as well. 

 

Till next time; Be Brilliantly YOU!

 

P.S. I would love to see more people in my Facebook group, so feel free to invite people for whom you think it will be a fit. 

 

P.P.S.  On Instagram? You can follow me here

A blog post about the importance of where you put your focus to create the world you want to live in

Nothing linked to here this time around. I will however, urge you to READ. It WILL broaden your horizon and inspire you!

This will be about holistic health; videos, websites, products that I myself use and/or find trustworthy.  Coming, but may take till December. I have something in mind......